It's not tt i do not care, i juz don't want to

indifference is one of the most powerful tools; There are times when emotions are too overwhelming to be put on display, and occasionally, a situation calls for more dignity. Indifference provides a shield of privacy behind which one is able to process her real emotions.
i learnt this from the book you gave me

Take my nonchalance for unreasonableness, rudeness, my pride,
but dun expect me to shed my apathy,
provide me a sustenance at least
coz its has been e only thing holdin me tgh,
keepin these tears from fallin..

i'm living for the moment,
loving for the moment,
nothing's gonna hold me back now,
nothing's gonna stop me from loving you.




minimoni's eva so wise

i'm being petty again,i noe.
unreasonable.
i dunoe why either.
You dun havta say sorry really,
i'm not waiting for one either.
Not gonna make you say it
juz so tt eth will be fine
i promised myself to change..
It's me, i noe
Sorry

It's a fact i've been denying, the truth i've been escaping from,
but i won't delude myself any longer, you just don't love me as much as i'd like to believe you do..


i think i can finally understand why you cld always just mention a break up like it neva meant ath to u to utter the words i so dread to hear, that you cld always just let me go and move on like nothing eva happened. I dun blame you for not loving me as much as i love you coz i was the one who made the decision to love with eth i had, to love with such naivety, reckon i can only agree with her now tt i'm really at the losin end. I know i shdn't expect you to place me above eth else, and i can't force you either, but it still hurts to noe you wldn't anyway. it's smt i'll juz havta accept i guess. it's difficult, but i'll havta work on my priorities now, deliberate on wad's really impt to me currently. i dunoe if i'm doin e right thing, seems shallow and superficia that i'm choosing to shift my focus away from you now only becoz i've finally accepted that you can't reciprocate my love. i love u, i still do, nothing will eva change that. You taught me a painful lesson tday, but one that i really needed to learn. thank you.

i need to listen carefully, listen to wad my heart really has to say...