It's a fact i've been denying, the truth i've been escaping from,
but i won't delude myself any longer, you just don't love me as much as i'd like to believe you do..


i think i can finally understand why you cld always just mention a break up like it neva meant ath to u to utter the words i so dread to hear, that you cld always just let me go and move on like nothing eva happened. I dun blame you for not loving me as much as i love you coz i was the one who made the decision to love with eth i had, to love with such naivety, reckon i can only agree with her now tt i'm really at the losin end. I know i shdn't expect you to place me above eth else, and i can't force you either, but it still hurts to noe you wldn't anyway. it's smt i'll juz havta accept i guess. it's difficult, but i'll havta work on my priorities now, deliberate on wad's really impt to me currently. i dunoe if i'm doin e right thing, seems shallow and superficia that i'm choosing to shift my focus away from you now only becoz i've finally accepted that you can't reciprocate my love. i love u, i still do, nothing will eva change that. You taught me a painful lesson tday, but one that i really needed to learn. thank you.

i need to listen carefully, listen to wad my heart really has to say...