fleeting moments,
Wary glances,
Plastered smiles,
Shallow breaths,
palpitating heartbeats,

It doesn't feel that long ago wen i'd steal glimpses of you,
and find my eyes strayin to your profile..
It doesn't seem that long ago wen u cld take my breath away,
and make my heart skip a beat just by glancin my way..
and you still do, i still find my heart racing weneva i'm near you.

barely hangin on

you get on my nerves so badly sometimes, i juz wanna scream!
and as if tt's nt bad enuff, you step on my toes too?!?
you push me over the edge, put my patience to the test!
and it really doesn't help that you simply tick me off, piss me off, make my blood boil,
the best part is, while i sit here fuming, frowning, crossed as i can possibly be,
you probably haven't a single clue abt it, nt a teeny weeny one bit!
So i'll juz put my smile back on once again!
and pretend that every single emotion
that juz flashed me by neva happened.
i doubt it's working,
coz i'm still pissed!

your obscurity befuddles me

ya,so i decided to heed ur advice and do smt productive!
i think you seriously suck! i neva get wad's on ur mind?! i neva do?! like wad're you thinking most of the time?! it frustrates me coz somehow,i dun think i'll eva noe...

I often wonder abt wad's beneath that disssemble of yours, often wonder abt how you can be so unfathomable and enigmatic sometimes. you enthral me, enchant me, captivate me and hold me spellbound under your spectacular masquerade. When will i eva be able to see you unadorned,and free from all these embellishments, concealments? i wanna see you in your unbriddled form,with nth to hide,nth to disguise,nth you're too afraid to show.

Sometimes,a crack beneath that perfect facade reveals your saturnine,your skeptical disposition,your disdain with life. It scares me to see this scornful side of you, but it hurts me even more to know that you see your world bereft of hope, devoid of light, that naught but only dark, gloomy thoughts shroud ur mind, casting bleakness over your skies.

It's moments like this, i hope you'll always remember that you can turn to me. pls do not shun me, but let me show you life's hope, give warmth to touch your hardened cords, and bring sunshine back into your darkness.
you noe that i love you

it's been a while

I've almost forgotten what it felt like to be able to juz write,
to let my words spin a tale of its own,
and dance to a rythm of its own.
i've forgotten how it felt like to write without
convictions,and clearly with no objectives,
to cast inhibitions to the winds and
to lose myself in a whirl of words.
i've forgotten how words had
a magical compelling way of tellin a story,
my story.

I wish i were wiser,
blessed with the learned minds
of the wordly.
Then,maybe,my story would have turned out differently,
and words would have a different story to tell.
I wish i could have seen the way things would have turned out,
then maybe,
if i could turn back the hands of time,
things would have turned out differently,
and not the way it is today.
Is this self-pity i sense?
To wallow in this vicious trap,
to dwell on stagnant grief, i fear.
I want to move on,
but the nightmares that lurk in the depths
of my sub-conscious mind continues to haunt me.
Sometimes,i feel like as if i could move on
but looking at you only refreshes the pain,
the memories that i'm tryin so hard to conceal.
I wish i could have done something,
but all these words only evince the real coward i am.